As I was putting on my makeup today, God unmistakably gave me my blog topic for the evening. This blog is about living bold and free- and the journey He’s put me on to get here. I may not always feel bold and free but He tells me I am and that’s enough for me.
Living bold and free requires me to do some radical things. When God tells me to do something unusual, I’ve learned to just obey. As I step up in obedience, God moves. Not because of me, but because of Him.
To me, living freely is living without any worldly constraints. I don’t have to worry about what anyone thinks of me because I know what God thinks of me. I don’t need to take a poll to see what all my friends think I should do if I am following what God calls me to do. I don’t even need to ask anyone if they think I heard God right. I know when my Savior speaks to me because I am His sheep and I know my Shepherd’s voice. I may be one of the millions of tall Scandinavian blondes He’s put on this earth but I’m as special to him as if I was his only child. He calls me precious and I am daddy’s girl.
One of the first things God had to tell me over and over again was that I am beautiful. I felt ugly, and unworthy. Imagine, a princess feeling like that! As a child of the king, I’m a princess. Have you ever seen an ugly princess? I sure haven’t. He told me, All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you.
I finally got to the point where I felt beautiful when I had the right clothes and makeup on. He kept telling me that I was beautiful in just my skin. Just my own blue skin without any makeup. He thinks I’m beautiful plain. So, I took the picture. I’ve never allowed one to be taken like this.
So here I am, just plain me, forty-three, bold and free - beautiful in my own skin.
He showed me that true beauty is not on the outside, but on the inside, it’s the stuff he’s been growing in me. It’s not about the hair, makeup, or the size I wear. It’s about Him. When people see me, I want them to see Him.
What matters is not your outer appearance—the styling of your hair, the jewelry you wear, the cut of your clothes—but your inner disposition. Cultivate inner beauty, the gentle, gracious kind that God delights in.
*Song of Solomon 4:7 (NIV)
*1 Peter 3:3-4 (MSG)