| Still fighting for life |
During this life-threatening situation, I received true clarity of thought. In that moment, my priorities fell into place and I focused on what really mattered. My worries about our bills, my job or the house became less significant. My only concern was for my family.
I must have dozed off because the next time I opened my eyes, most of my family was in the room. Supported by their love, I was incredibly comforted. I grabbed hold of these feelings and carried them with me into surgery.
I knew in my heart, I was going to be fine and I wanted to reassure them. I didn’t believe God would send me to the hospital to die. After all, I could have died at home for free. But the pain and drugs kept me from voicing my thoughts.
My pain had greatly diminished the next time I awoke. I was so relieved; I gave little thought to all the tubes and devices that were keeping me comfortable. I felt great peace from the prayers of believers all over the world.
My surgeon removed over a foot of dead intestine and thoroughly rinsed the peritoneal cavity. He also documented the diseased bowel so we could see just how bad it was. I couldn’t believe what was inside me. It looked like burnt brats (Incidentally, brats are a food I no longer eat.). No wonder I was in so much pain.
Thirty years ago, when I had my appendectomy, the surgeon remarked that I had three extra feet of colon. God knew that I would need it now. Because of His infinite wisdom, I didn’t need a colostomy bag.
Though the surgery was over, my life still hung in the balance as I battled a serious blood infection.
10 comments:
Wow, Jan! Thanks for sharing!
:) Merry Christmas, Robin!
When I read your story, the story of John Wesley comes to mind - a brand plucked out of the burning (Zechariah 3:2) - as he was saved from death as a boy. The Lord had great plans for him.
Susan
Thanks for the encouragement Susan!
I knew in my heart that you would be fine, too, but at that time we were all kindof numb and in shock at the enormity of your condition. SO thankful that the Lord kept us all strong!I knew He would take care of you.
Loveyou, Mom
I was praying so hard, when all that was happening. I am so glad you are well and here. You are a wonderful gift that God gave me, my friend.
Merry Christmas!
I am so thankful you're alive! I'm still praying for you. :)
I am so glad this is in the past. I was so frightened for you. God is great!
Praise God you were at peace, Jan. Your faith is SO strong. You're an amazing example.
But oh, the strain and concern that your family must have felt! Like you, I think most about them. Your husband deserves the "best Christian man on the planet award." His faith must have carried him through some very dark moments before, during, and after your hospitalization.
Times of loss, illness, and financial strain, test and shape us. When our world changes dramatically--in the blink of an eye--all we can do is live one day at a time. You seem to be doing that with aplomb. (Though our circumstances are different, we've certainly experienced our fair share of hardship.)
No doubt all of your life's experiences have prepared you for this new and blossoming period of your life.
(((Hugs))) e-Mom
Goodness..this is tough stuff. I'm so glad you have family, prayers and a positive attitude.
Thanks for sharing more about what you went through. I'm so glad God gave you extra where you needed it most.
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